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8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

I asked you first.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

yeah but you always say you're only here cause of me so i wanna know what YOU think

8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

I think half the Research Department would feed us to the rift creatures just to see what would happen, so I think if anyone's gonna think about our own self-preservation, it's gotta be us.

You know me, I always like to have a contingency plan or 5.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

i know you. [...] i guess for me i ain't really used to jobs that don't feel like this

8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

I know.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

if you want to leave though you should leave. don't stay where you're gonna be scared just cause i'm here.

8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

I'm not scared, I just don't love the idea of dying for the government.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

fine then don't stay where you're unhappy. you don't wanna work for the gov, don't work for the gov.

8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

[...]

Sorry I said anything. Bye.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

[...] i'm not MAD at you???

[loudon lou 🌱]

8/31 (10 minutes later)

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

lou

8/31 (an hour later)

[loudon lou 🌱]

Nobody's forcing you to talk to me either.

I'm leaving for the night.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

no i WANT to talk to you. where you headed

8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

Why? Every time I say anything, you just get pissed off at me.

I dunno. I'm just going. But not missing like those other people.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

[...] ok i know i read like i was pissed off and maybe i was a lil but it wasn't at you and i'm sorry

8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

You told me to go, so I'm going. Goodnight.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

i didn't mean it like that!!!

8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

You basically called me a chickenshit for having reservations about any of this and told me to leave if I don't like it.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

no i just meant like [...] if you're not happy here then you deserve to be somewhere where you could be. bein unhappy here just cause i'm here too makes me feel like i'm WHY you're unhappy and i don't want to be your reason

8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

[...] I never intended to put all that on you. I'm sorry.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

i know. don't think i realized how it feels til ru said something similar when we were in argentina n i thought "oh like when lou says" etc like it's different situations but both times my stubborn ass gets to be why y'all stay here to risk yourselves and frown at everything.

8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

If nobody's allowed to express any hesitation or ask questions, then it's basically a cult, ain't it?

[...]

It'd probably be better for both of us if I just left.

8/31

[coulee rory fairfax, advanced gay]

idk what that first part's about. but all i want you to think about's what's good for you

8/31

[loudon lou 🌱]

[...]

Y'know, I did talk to someone and she says I'm not responsible for other people's happiness.

Neither are you. Just a thought.

Anyway, I'm gonna head out.